love tank gage on full today :)

dearest one

I looked into your beautiful big brown eyes today

and cought a glimpse of your soul

a thing of such beauty

it was meant for none to see

for it was there glowed a fire within

Not of a raging inferno

more like a glowing ember

of a fire started by one with a purpose

the purpose of survival!

started by someone

whose utter being depended

on the deep warmth

that the coals

deep and long sustaining embers would bring

you see my love

I know that fire within your soul

is my love for you

It will never die

Not one person

will ever be given the power

to blow all of the coals away

The coals are the foundation

A way

to rekindle the warm fire within you

that feeds your soul

That small piece of you I saw today

was a gift

a gift only meant for me

Cwest

Really?? OH how I love that man!!!

diet days.. the sequel

On day 11 of 26...
pounds lost.. 10 1/2
miles run... 8
amount of times I have to pee.. countless
 heads I have snapped off... 5 including 2 strangers
emotional meltdowns.. 3
sizes down... 1 (I gotta booty)

Its getting harder.. I am hungry non stop today....and sooo tired....
I bought some B12 drops, I hope they kick in tomorrow

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Feeling a bit un appreciated today... maybe a little ignored....
The princess in me wants to be cherished and showered with gifts... BA HAHAHAHA
Heres to wishin!

affirmations....

I am attracting wealth in abundance!

I am attracting fun clients who enjoy working with me and refer me to their friends and family.

I am growing my business everyday while building strong lasting relationships.

I am spending quality time with the people who are important to ME.

My deals go smoothly.

I am focusing on helping others grow their business everyday while I grow mine.

I am planning my work and working my plan each day.

I am doing something everyday to improve myself.

I AM greatful for my life and everything in it!!

I look at this everyday and am starting to believe it!

Thank you Mark! Love the card!!

Diet Days...

Oh the battle of the bulge....

weight is my enemy... I drive it away from me 

It always comes back!  

I want to document my efforts to rid myself of muffin top for good!!

Y'all know I have been running pretty regularly for the last 2 months...

the pounds keep creeping on...

I have decided to take drastic measures!!!

Yes I am still committed to running..

after all I signed up for the Bryce Canyon half... (yikes) 

I am on day 2 of a very low calorie diet..

So far so good ... I have consumed gallons of coffee and iced tea...

I cant go longer than 45 minutes without having to pee..

I look like an orphan with no make up and straggly hair..

If you would like to  read more about this diet, I will post a link.

I've done it 3 times before..

January of 2009.. very successful! went from 193 to 172 in three weeks!

I manages to keep it off because I followed the Diet and maintenance phase very strictly (is that a word)

April 2009....

started out at 175 ( did the diet on vacation in TX capitol of delicious, bad for you, food)

Because we (my bff cuz and I) are so naughty when we are together.. we kept justifying a little treat here and there!! LOL  I manage to get down to 160... I did not take the maintenance phase too seriously this time and quickly gained about 8 pounds back..

September 2009

starting weight...168

This was such a bad Idea... Coming off of my worst summer stress wise, amidst my grieving husband and 

in laws ( my father in law passed away)... I was dieting...  

I manged to get down to 152 (lowest ever since I have had kids)

Again I didn't follow the maintenance phase very closely and quickly went up to 157

a month later I was 162

a month later I was 167

Then I had surgery on my foot..

end of December..172

I realized I was having hormonal issues recently and was prescribed birth control pills...

march 22 (the day I started the diet again)... 180

I am so depressed about this... I know weight loss will always be a challenge for me because of my under active thyroid gland.

I is SOOO easy for me to put on the pounds before you can say paradise pie...

I have learned that being stressed does things to your body that are not healthy..

I have learned treats every night and a glass of wine are NOT moderation!!!

I have learned that if you keep walking out your door.. every day.. running will get easier..

Wish me luck!! XOXOclick here for more info on the HCG Diet 

Ski DaY!!!

So Hubby took the kiddos up to POW MOW while I stayed home in the peace and quiet.. Thank you Hunna!! I know.. It sounds like I have a bunch of five year olds... I promise you teenagers are louder than 5 year olds!!

our back yard :)

so silly

yep, worse than 5 year olds...

I love em anyway :)

one more Swimming Post!!

Ok... i edited a few more pictures.. I want to say we captured a very sad and dissapointed Bean....

Even though swimming in an individual sport where you win every time your times go down, It still hard to get beat by so many girls who are faster..( especially when you are one of the fastest kids you know).. It was a little bit of a shock to see the tough competition..

I will say I am a PROUD mama!!! Brighton, You swam 7 out of  8 of your events FASTER than you EVER have before!!  You have times that are faster than all but one girl that will swim with you next year in highshool...(even the seniors) You WILL break school records!!! You WILL reach your goals!!!

I know right now you are disheartened.. I know you are sad... Think of this as an oppurtunity to learn! Learn from the girls that are FAST.. How do they train?? You have SOO much talent!! You are an angel in the water! Watching you swim is one of my favorite things...  You have learned the value of HARD WORK... Now you just have to decide how HARD to WORK... You are my super star Bean! I love you so much!

one of her favorite coaches and her biggest fan :)

2 more coaches.. we love that AMY!!

(bean stretching in the middle)

backstroke

more backstroke

are you okay?

we cant forget her other biggest fan! he played photog all week...

time for a little break!!!

Now on to Track , water polo, and HCG.....LOL

UGH.... I need a nap!

swim pics

Sooo... we thought we would play around with a different lense at the meet... im not very happy with most of the pictures!! Too blurry! Here is what I could pick out...

Im soo proud.

She swam the best she ever has!

unfortunately her competition (most of whom are a year older and swimming in highschool)

was FAST!!

Frustration

Gearing up!!!

Ok my friends!!!
Its monday and probably the ony time this week I can blog... Its going to be a great week!!! Brighton Has a BIG meet this week! The Utah Short Course Junior Olymics!!! sound exciting?? You betcha!! It is so gratifying seeing her do so well when she works so hard :)

I will post some past pictures of her swim meets just to get us excited....

.

ok are you excited?!?!

ME TOO!!!!!!!

stay tuned!

awe pookie :)

Grey and Dad putting the finishing touches on the rental

check out the snazzy shoes.....

dont forget the tickets!

how you like me now!!!!

I really wanted to get pictures of the whole group, but with the rain and puddles... I didnt want the kids to ruin there clothes and shoes.... oh well... there is always the cheesey prom pictures from the dance :)

Have fun Grey! BE GOOD!!!!!

Its me!!

HEELLOOOO out there!!!!

I dont know who reads this blog, but I suspect someone does!
I apologize for not making regular entries..
I haven't felt very creative or expressive these days..
I attribute it to cabin fever!
I feel the need to roam and explore!!
Its just not in the cards right now... (kids)
so I have had a little bit of the blues..
I just wanted to write a quick note to say..
There will be exciting posts ahead!
1. Bean will be swimming in the state championships next week
(I'll try to remember my camera)
2.Grey has Prom on saturday!!!
we went to pick up his tux yesterday.. what a hansome guy
3.I will be starting my dreaded diet soon... be expecting many posts since I will need to preoccupy my hands so that they wont be able to grab food...
until then....
XOXOXO