This is my bLoG!!! I get to SaY whatever I wAnT!!! My gripes, joys, and whatever comes to mind :) I love anything CrEaTiVe, ViSuAL, HeARtFELT, YuMmY, FuNnY, INSPIRING!!!

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

new beginnings'... :)

Most probably think I have abandoned my blog.. In a lot of ways I have... I havent wanted to resvisit it because I wasnt sure if I was ready to see and feel what it represented.
through 2010 my goal was to stay positive.. see my life for what it is.. blessed.. and push my self to do things that I never thought I could. Most of my posts reflected just that.
My life has gone through major upheaval since July and I couldnt figure out a way to write about it without it looking like I was airing dirty laundry... I also lost some focus and creativity.
I have seen divorce through the eyes of a bystander.. good friends whose marriages didnt work out for whatever reason...
I wasnt prepared for the feeling of complete and utter failure. I wasnt prepared for the people whom I was close to to choose sides. I wasnt prepared for the heart wrenching pain of seperating myself from an entire extended family.
I thought I could handle what my kids would do... They've been amazing.. I love them so much. I am blessed.
Some months have passed and my outlook has improved. the love in my heart is still there. My ex is still my best friend and we are still a team when it comes to the kids.
Some day I will find someone to share my life with again.. That is not my focus now...
2011 will represent  a stronger me. An Independant me. A happy me.

how my life looks now :)


 
what 2011 will bring
G will graduate!!! whoa...
L will drive!!!...
B will dominate the pool!!

1 comment:

  1. And I get to be a friend to watch you succeed.
    :)
    Life isn't over. Its just beginning. For you both.
    Im proud of BOTH of you!
    hard things can ALWAYS be overcome with good things.
    luv you!

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