ups and downs

It has been a busy busy week... running and working and being productive.. I went from good things happening for my job to..... making the decision to go see my terribly sick grandmother (  I knew I couldn't stand to see her suffering).

~family~
I am only super close to a couple people in my family. I really kinda think I am just a loner. I am an only child raised by a teenage mother whom I have endless issues with. Needless to say we aren't close, we rarely see each other even though we live in the same city. Sometimes I feel really bad about that. My husband reminds me that I would be happy to spend time with her is she had the desire. ....

From my mother, I am blessed with  a great big extended family (she has 5 sisters and a brother).
I have grown up with so many cousins and am still close to some today!

Back to my Grandma...... she is sick..... Her lungs are in horrible shape and there are times when she cant breath.. I haven't seen her for a long time .. for no good reason other just being busy with my own brood.. I went to see her this week and she was just good old grandma cracking jokes and singing songs.. I fell in love with her all over again.. how could I go SO long without seeing her!! My grandparents lived in California most of my adult life.. even though I talked to them on the phone occasionally, I was used to not seeing them.... When Grandpa died, she moved back.. I have no good excuse...

Because grandma is sick, My one and only uncle came to town.. Michelle, you said it best when you said all the good memories just came flooding in.... I miss that guy!!!

now the downer..
some days I just don't feel cut out for the real estate biz.. My fun clients whom I was helping them buy a new home and sell their old one...totally got cold feet and backed out of both.. Although I don't blame them and I understood their anxiety ... I felt like I got fired. I am broken hearted today.
well I just have to get back up (again) and go get some more business.
In the last year I have discovered a very stubborn streak in me..  I don't want to fail!! and quitting is failure.. I cant walk away from something even if its making me crazy or breaking my heart... I want it to work! I want to succeed!

My son turned 17 yesterday!! ahhh stop getting older!!!!

Here is hoping for some happy posts next week!!!

Thanks for reading :)

"Blue Sky" by Emily West

what a pretty song... I know its depressing but I always love break up songs... ha ha

a BeauTiFuL SuNDaY.....

I love the sun!

The smells

 the way if feels in my lungs

when Im running

the way it kisses my skin

I love the sun!

Hal Higdon novice training for half marathon week 1 : ACOMPLISHED!!!!!!!

What the???!!!! Stephanie Meyer has a new book????
Looks soo good!!

Diet days #24
Ugh....
started out ok... Im not on the shots now but still need to follow diet for 3 days..
skipped lunch, came home starving ate 3 (60 cals)parmesan crisps (yummy and salty) and 4 slices of salami (100 cals)
GRRRRRRRR........
I guess i will just keep track of the calories and not worry too much about content...LOL

On a brighter note.. my cutest bestest Cuz is opening a Cupcake bakery in Ogden!!!!! I went JuNkIng with her today to furnish the shop and then got a personal tour of her new space! I have soo much fun with that chicky :) I am super excited for the place to open... she has been dreaming of this for a long time!

Business is still super slow for me, Im hoping to pick up soon and If you know anyone who wants to buy or sell real estate, let me know!! xoxoxoxo

fessin....

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here we go!!!!!

1.  so so stinkin sick of my diet!!! I want to scream!!!!!
2. I got knocked down last night by a terrible migraine (residual headache still creeping about), all I could think about was who could I buy a percocet from!!! LOL I didnt, I toughed it out.
3. Thats what I get for not wearing my glasses in over a week!
4. I hate wearing glasses. stupid astigmatism..
5. This is a super whiny post, isnt it?
6. Business has been sssaaaalllllooooowwwww (slow, exagerated)..
7. if you want your hair did or your house sold, Im your girl!
8. I have the shopping bug so bad... all I want to do is refurnish my house!!! and my wardrobe!
9. I hate budgets
10. this diet and headache are getting to me... sorry for the temper tantrum :0)

diet day #19

completely stalled!!! going crazy!!! grrrrrr.....
so I have not lost anything for 5 days!! Its very frustrating when you are on a strict diet!!

my favorite things..

Anyone have just a few things that they love to splurge on?
 I dont mean big expensive items... just little things that maybe you could save on or go with out?

Here are a few of mine....
Clinique Almost Lipstick in Black Honey
LOccitaine Almond Apple velvet concentrate... so silky soft...
Estee Lauder Beautiful

I would post pictures if I could figure it out but just go to my amazon link to find the products if you want to try them...
I think I am going to drop some mothers day hints to my family...